Why dont more people support their local pbs station? Do they feel guilty like me when they watch Pink Floyd playing pulse, knowing that ordinarily that would be something that they would have paid for to see, but now, since they dont have to, since they can sit back on their couch and feel an awkward mixture of duty and apathy, with the latter just slightly besting the fight, well, they just wont. And if its gone tommorow, I'm sure something else will be on. Can't count on people's charitable will. Maybe I just subliminally really want a tote bag, whatever that is.

I find myself here again, actively trying to waste some more time, avoiding studying for evidence, or crim pro, or bioethics. All subjects which I chose to take earlier, before the semester began, and which now, I'm trying desperately, failingly to justify my disinterest in. There was an interesting articlein New York magazine this week about burnout. One of the more interesting points made was that contrary to common intuition, burnout is not mainly the effect of unrelenting work, with correspondinglyy little rest. Rather, its a function of something more abstract, an ennui born of the complete collapse of personal motivation, drive and ambition. When a person feels totally the utter worthlessness of his efforts, and himself. The article mentioned that its more prevalent in twentysomethings, then older folks since they still have the opportunity to have their dreams demoralized and ideals disillusioned, whereas old people have already been graced with those byproducts of life.